Is Ego Necessary?

The Illusion of Balance and the Path to Transcendence

In modern spirituality, we often hear phrases like “a healthy ego is necessary” or “you must balance your ego”—ideas deeply embedded in New Age teachings. But these perspectives misunderstand a crucial truth: ego is not something to be balanced, but dissolved.

The belief in a "healthy ego" keeps many seekers trapped in an illusion of control, unknowingly surrendering their power to the false self. Ego is a structure that enslaves consciousness, preventing true spiritual liberation.

The Root of the Confusion: What Are We Truly Balancing?

Balance is a universal principle—it exists in nature, in cosmic forces, and within us. But what are we truly meant to balance? Many mistake ego for darkness, assuming that balancing light and dark means embracing ego as part of the equation.

But ego is not darkness. It can wear darkness as a cloak, just as easily as it can masquerade as light. Ego is neither—it is a shadow puppet, an illusion cast on the wall of the mind. It is the false self, a mechanical construct built from identification with thoughts, emotions, experiences, and survival mechanisms.

The ego was born when humanity fell from divine grace, severing its connection to the higher realms through the misuse of the Christic force—the sacred seed within all living beings. From that moment, humanity began creating in its own image, forming psychological aggregates—egoic structures born as survival mechanisms, yet destined to become a prison of the false self.

Ego was never meant to be part of our true being. Soul and ego occupy the same consciousness, but they are like water and oil. Ego belongs to the lower realms of existence and cannot sustain itself in the higher worlds.

Many confuse darkness with evil, yet darkness is not inherently negative. It is the cosmic womb, the receptive force, the primordial mystery. Its eternal counterpart is light—the active force, the divine impulse that brings form into being

Darkness and light are like lovers meant to dance in perfect harmony—the sacred union of opposites. Ego, however, is the distortion. It is the force that resists balance, clings to separation, and creates artificial structures of control.

As humans, we must balance and transcend duality within ourselves through chastity sexual alchemy —the sacred fusion of masculine and feminine energies, the divine fire that leads us back to Eden, as well as sanctity which is the dissolution of the false self.

Ego stands in the way of chastity, corrupting these forces to sustain itself.

When people seek to balance the ego, they unknowingly reinforce its grip on their identity, rather than dissolving it back into the natural flow of divine will.

Ego vs. Personality: A Critical Distinction

One of the greatest misconceptions is equating ego with personality. Many fear that dissolving the ego means losing their individuality and their ability to function in the world—but this is not true.

• Personality is a temporary mask, a construct that allows us to navigate human existence. It dissolves upon death.

• Ego, however, is something deeper—a parasitic structure that persists from lifetime to lifetime unless consciously dissolved.

If the soul does not dissolve the ego, nature will do it instead—through the lower realms. This is the process of the second death, described in Dante’s Inferno, where fragmented consciousness undergoes disintegration.

A well-formed personality is not egoic—it is a tool. But when personality becomes self-important, attached, or justified, it turns into an extension of ego.

The challenge is to wear the mask without becoming it—to function in the world without mistaking personality for the true self.

The Deception of a "Healthy Ego"

One of the greatest spiritual traps is the belief that ego must be strengthened for success, confidence, or even enlightenment. Many teachings claim:“The Chariot needs a strong driver to control the wild horses.”

But what if the driver itself is the problem? What if true mastery is not about controlling the chariot but surrendering the ego that seeks control?

In truth, it is not the ego that tames the wild horses—it is the Monad, the divine intelligence within us.

The Chariot is a powerful esoteric symbol—not of egoic strength, but of spiritual transformation.

• The Chariot itself is the light body, the Merkabah, formed through sacred inner alchemy.

• The driver is our Innermost Being, the divine will within us.

• The horses represent the four elements we must master:

  • Earth – the physical body, instincts, material desires

  • Water – emotions, the subconscious

  • Fire – willpower, transformation

  • Air – intellect, thought, clarity

Ego attaches to one horse or another, favoring certain elements while remaining blind to others. It is not the force that controls the Chariot—but the very obstacle that keeps it from moving freely toward divinity.

Beyond Ego: The Effortless Flow of Existence

I have seen my own resistance. I have watched ego disguise itself as righteousness, even in the pursuit of truth.

Yet, I have also experienced moments beyond ego—states of pure being where no sense of self remained, only divine presence.

In deep meditation, I once saw an aspect of my ego—one I had struggled with my entire life—finally separate from me. I watched it move, blind to the weight of its actions, unaware of the suffering it caused both to myself and others. Compassion arose alongside horror, for it knew nothing beyond its own impulses.

I no longer identified with it. I no longer justified its existence.

Then, I was suddenly taken before a mystic judge, an unearthly presence who held an open book, measuring my essence with silent wisdom.

He opened a portal—an opening into the underworld where this ego belonged. I surrendered to it, prepared to die.

Three days later, in the space between wakefulness and sleep, the Divine Mother whispered:

"Relax for now; you will not die just yet. But now you know where you go if you keep feeding those aspects." Indeed, I understood. A profound sense of responsibility emerged—not as a burden, but as a gift—a chance to awaken and transform.

A journey into the heart can reveal what lies beyond the confines of ego. In that space, a vast, starry cosmos unfolds—a field of existence where all things move effortlessly, in harmony with the great unfolding. There, struggle dissolves, and life flows as it was always meant to—free, luminous, and whole.

To release the ego is to step into liberation, where light and darkness meet in sacred union, no longer at war but woven into the fabric of creation.

Here, there is no illusion to bind us, only the quiet guidance of divine intelligence, ever present, ever waiting for our return.

Iuliana S.

March 10, 2025